(pictures: me in the hospital in June 2011. Next picture: me in one of my civil war re-enacting regalia. This is my native american version of the re-enacting attire August 2011. Next picture: me with my newly pinked hair October 2011.)
2011 has been a year of much learning and growing in faith for me. The health troubles with my dad on to my own health issues has been a biggie. I was put in the hospital back in June for my chornic pancreatitis. I was not allowed to eat or drink that way my pancreas could rest. I was on IV for fluids and on TPN for nutrition. Nothing by mouth. It helped. They also increased by daily enzyme pills which helpes a ton.
This was our 1st year to do the civil war re-enacting. We love it and will continue to do it. Ill talk more about that in another post. But Ive meant a lot of neat ppl and learned a lot.
This year I turned 40. Ive always had a fairly conservitive look. Well I got sick of it. I wanted some bling bling to my looks without having to me immodest. I had never colored my hair other then trying a shampoo coloring that washes out. Ive always wanted some lavender purple in my hair and decided that once the re-enacting season was over Id do it. So I did. My oldest sister did it for me. I didnt want the entire head to be colored just strips. She bleached several strips then put the color in. It started out with some purple coloring but mostly turned pink. Im ok with that. Ill have to dye it my normal color when the 2012 re-enacting season starts up. I like being different.
This year has been one of the best and hardest at the same time.
There are some evil people out there in this world. People who wont hesitate to cause others harm for whatever twisted reason. They tried. They tried hard. Their lies and made up delusional accusations got them nowhere. They had hoped to destory my family ruining life for us. I dont know why. I tend to get along with everyone and dont have any enemys that I know of. But yet someone saw fit to make us their enemy. I tried to think of how I might have affended them but am at a loss. I mean I know Im not perfect so maybe I said something that ticked them off. But it coudnt have been so bad that they'd go to such great lengths to try and destroy my family.
Well they failed. Their actions brought us much grief and trouble and it spawned off wild rumors. But it quickly got turned into a blessing to where me and my family started recieving help and needed gifts from people. It is like God has turned on the gift giving machine and downloaded into people's minds to come help us and give us gifts we needed and to get us by and encourage us. If only I could explain it all! You'd surely be blessed to know how God has been helping us.
The person's actions/words caused my kids mental and emotional anguish for weeks/months too and it still does sometimes. But now they see the way God has come to our protection and has been sending us tons of help and relief. The kids see all this and are learning to have more trust and faith in God.
Those blessings have been what has been keeping me from just dropping off the face of the earth in a deep dispair and situational depression. I could have let the enemy win and gave up. I could have wallered in unforgiveness and bitterness. I wanted to be vengeful but knew better. Instead I prayed God would help the person find happiness in their life. As the person continued to cause trouble I got flusstered and prayed God would punish them but still make them learn and be saved anyways. You just dont mess with one of God's kids you see.
I now tend to 2nd guess people and their intentions and thoughts. I dont know who can be trusted outside of my family anymore. I keep the curtains closed at night time now. Are my kids safe? Will they try and harm our kids and animals? I dont know. But I do know that God has my back. He has brought us through this horrid nightmare in an amazing way. Truely amazing! Thank You Lord! I love You!
And life still goes on.
And on.
Christmas eve and day was fun and nice. So was the annual Christmas eve eve all nighter. Lots of fun! Much needed fun!
I have learned this year:
-to watch my health better.
-about civil war and other history.
-that there are truely awful evil lying people out there.
-that my extended family really does love me and help me.
-to have more faith and trust in God.
-that I bounce back.
I have much to be thankful for.
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